Anyway, I'm sure you're all wondering what I'm getting to here.. Ha! I think I am just going through a change in my life or a "reorganization" of my life. Setting goals and priorities that are meaningful and fruitful in my life, things that will last and speak forth throughout the rest of my life. Focusing on raising my children, growing in the Lord and seeking him more, setting a better example for my children, being more thankful for my life and people and things I have in my life, learning to love myself and be happy with who I am, not get so down and upset with myself, love and respect my husband more, be a better help-meet for him and being the Godly wife, mother, and woman God wants me to be. Those are my goals and my priorities right now.
I'm only speaking about myself here, I don't want any of you to think that I am accusing anyone or judging anyone. This is totally my feelings and what I'm going through right now.
I have not been happy with myself. I think I let myself get so consumed with all this blogging and such that I became someone I am not happy with. I realize it's time to do something about it and not give into laziness.
I want to grow stronger in the Lord and my relationship with him, to allow him to be #1 in my life like he should be! To allow him to change and mold me into who he wants me to be. I need to be the one that's willing and giving it over to him. Otherwise if I try and take the reins he can't drive and I have taken his ability to lead me, away.
So with that said. I just want you all to know that I am sorry for all the silence, and sorry I don't have fun things to share with you. And it's not to say that I will never make cards or scrap again. But that I will do it when I feel I want to or have an opportunity to. And there may be times where I will do it a lot too, but for now I'm just relaxing, not stressing. I do want to make things and create some gifts for people, so that will be things I will try and do. I may just not share everything on here. I did actually make a couple cards for the first time since we've lived here the other night. And it was strange, I had fun, but I still just didn't feel the vibes like I use to, ha!
So I may be putting card creating on the back burner for now. I may pop up with a few here and there- Who knows!! My one goal in the creative world that I am going to try and keep up with is scrapping my boys. Even in that, I am so terribly behind that I feel overwhelmed so I don't know where to start, because I have THOUSANDS upon THOUSANDS of photos of them to scrap. So I need to just take it one day at a time. So I may post a few digi pages here and there. Again, who knows what I will end up doing!
So I hope this doesn't upset any of you and I hope you will still visit me! I still enjoy seeing what others create and I love to hear your kind comments on here!
Anyway, I was on the computer thinking about being thankful and how this week is Thanksgiving week and an idea popped in my mind. I thought of posting about something I am thankful for each day leading up to Thanksgiving day. I know that Monday is all over with but this will count for my first day, Monday and what I'm thankful for. And I will probably make it multiple things each day because there is SO much to be thankful for! Gosh it's SOOO late!!! I don't pull many late-nighters these days, I did so tonight because my hubby wanted some of his clothes washed for work tomorrow. I seriously just did a ton of loads! But now that he has a new job he doesn't have to wear anything too nice, so he doesn't have a whole lot of outfits for work, so they have to be washed more often. Anyway, Sorry for this EX-TREMELY long post, and I soo appreciate that you actually took time to read through all of this!! I know I got all wordy on you all again! I'm still me and I'm here and alive and well! Just some changes going on- and for the better! PRAISE THE LORD FOR THAT!!
So for my first day I am thankful to God for his providing us with our new home-a roof over our heads, and heat to heat our home!