Thursday, March 4, 2010

Blissful Love + crazy life------Warning.... LONG POST!

It's been a while since I've posted anything. But I want to thank those of you that are still faithful to leave me comments and visit my blog, old and new visitors! Thank you!
A lot has been happening here. It's been a roller coaster of emotions. It has taken me a while to even bring myself to scrap or do much with my pictures. I've had something pretty devastating happen to me. I haven't even wanted to blog, or talk about it much. Let's just say that something precious, irreplaceable, priceless, all memories I had to show for mid 2007 through to mid 2009 are gone.
A while back my husband took the pictures off our computer and put them on an external hard drive. Because our computer was getting low on memory and was running really slow. He didn't back them up on dvd's or anything else like I had asked him to do. I went to use the external hard drive one day to get some pictures off for scrapping. And to my dismay, my 16 1/2 month old son picked it up, and threw it on the floor.
I picked it up and heard something rattle in it. I didn't think a whole lot about it at first, I guess I just thought it would be okay, or I was just too scared to find out for sure if it was going to work. But when my husband went to hook it up to the computer, it would not recognize it. It made a funny noise. He worked on it for awhile to try and get it to work. But nothing.
I was devastated.
I was in shock.
 I started thinking of all the pictures we had on there, and what ones we still had on our computer. I realized ALL pictures from when my son Samuel was born were on that, all of his baby pictures, his first Christmas, every month of his life leading up to July of 2009 was gone. Other special events and moments flashed through my mind. My son, Isaac's 2nd and 3rd birthday, gone.
I cried.
I got fearful.
I felt like I lost someone very dear to me.
And what was more worse, most of those pictures I hadn't hardly even begun to touch to scrapbook.
I had just recently decided to really get myself into scrapping and going back to those ones and get them scrapped.
Now I can't.
My husband called a guy the next day, a local guy that specializes in recovering hard drive data. He sounded slightly hopeful.
We had another little hard drive we knew had some pictures from 2007 on it, and that hard drive wasn't broken, it just needed a special adapter that we no longer had to hook up to our computer to retrieve what we had on it.
He came the next day and picked up both hard drives.
Thankfully he had a cord he loaned us to use on the little hard drive, so we can get the pictures that were on that. But with the other one, he said it was beyond his capability.
he said there is a 95% chance that if we send it into a data recovery place they can get our pictures off it for us. But it's very expensive. Hundreds to possibly thousands of dollars to get fixed.
One more thing he tried, was to try and and retrieve the deleted pictures off our hard drive on our actual computer. But since so much time had gone by since the pictures had been deleted off our computer, it wasn't likely to get a whole ton of them. Because the longer you use your computer after you've deleted stuff off it the more likelihood of them being overwritten. And of course it writes over the biggest files first. Which would be our pictures and any videos.
Most of what he retrieved were small pictures, too small to do anything with. But there was a handful that were from the lost ones that I was happy he retrieved.
But just a small handful, compared to the THOUSANDS, and THOUSANDS of pictures we had on that hard drive.
I am praying.
I am hoping.
I am asking God.
Thanking him.
Praising him.
For the recovery of these precious pictures.
I don't know when we'll be able to send the hard drive in and what we'll find out, but I'm just praying that it will be good news and that I will one day have those pictures in my possession again.
Through it I thought of what it would be like to have your house burn down, and you loose everything. I think I felt somewhat like that. I mean, one day they'll all be gone and burn up anyway. But while I'm still alive on this earth and my children and children's children, I want to have those pictures. To remember, to reflect. Because that's all I have to show for that part of our lives, is just pictures. And sometimes we don't remember things unless we have a picture that shows for that moment.
I created this page today. They are pictures from Valentine's day. I've had some new digital supplies sitting in my folders for a while now, but haven't touched them until today. Like I said it took me a while to bring myself to scrap. It's just been hard. But I've realized how I really need to work harder on my bad habits. Like procrastination. Because if I wasn't like that, and was on top of things all the time. Then I could have already had those lost pictures scrapped. But I am not like that, and I didn't have them scrapped. So there's nothing I can do about it now. Other than just try to be better at it now. To not keep putting it off.
So on top of all that going on. We've been through some other crazy things lately.
We were without heat in our house for over a week. (long story). Our oil tank leaked. We lost all of our oil for heating. We had just had it filled a week before it happened. Thankfully, we were able to get a used tank from someone for 50 bucks. But we were still out the oil we lost. AND top of ALL of that, my son, Isaac & I got sick earlier this week . Some kind of stomach virus thing. It was not fun. Praise the Lord we are much better today!
I just thank the Lord for his faithfulness and seeing us through these trying and stressful times. Knowing that he's always there for us and can help us through these times is a wonderful feeling.
So if you got through this super long wordy post, Thank you for taking the time to read it!

"The Lord is my rock and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower." Psalm 18:2

"The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident." Psalm 27:1-3

"Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord."
Psalm 27:14

Have a wonderful rest of your week and weekend!

1 comment:

  1. Oh, I'm so sorry Jessica! I know that has to be hard to lose all those pictures. But praise God you have all the memories in your heart and that you have your health and your families health, to create new memories and you can capture those in pictures! Stay strong and if the Lord willing, you will see those pictures again! Praying and believing with you! In Jesus name! :)


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