Tupperware Mess + 2010 word

Hello!! Here I am with another page!! Yup! I am really trying to force myself to get into a scrapping routine so that I can get some of my scrapping underway here. I just have way too many pictures and I feel SO FAR behind. And I am tired of procrastinating. So instead of really having an order of what I'm scrapping right now, I just go through my pictures and find ones I would like to scrap and go from there.

So this is a page of my sweet little baby back in the summer, I can't believe how young and little he was here and how FAST time has gone! It almost makes me want to cry! So this page went together rather fast. I kind of had an idea in mind. And these frames I purchased from Designer Digitals a few weeks back are nice for doing a quick page. I'm not totally sure if I'm sold on this page, I don't know, maybe it has to grow on me.

So ever since December I had been pondering on what my word for 2010 was going to be. I prayed about it and thought about it a lot. And nothing would come to me. So many things came to mind that I wanted to work on and change in my life. Last year my word was "grow", and in many ways I felt I didn't achieve that goal as much as I had hoped. But when I sat down and thought about it, I think the Lord showed me that I did grow, but not necessarily in the areas I expected to, but in the areas that the Lord needed me to! So it's amazing the things he shows us and ways he humbles us.

And while there are a lot of things I still carry from last year, things I want to change and work on in my life, as I'm sure there will always be some. It's not like everything magically disappears over night right when the clock turns midnight and the new year begins! Of course to God it's just another new day to serve him and follow him. And really, we should treat everyday like a new year, a day to start fresh, to be forgiven (if need be) and learn to forgive yourself (again, if need be), (A friend really encouraged me in this! You know who you are! ;) and move on throughout the day. Allow God to be our strength and might throughout the day.

Too many a time I find myself these days really getting down on myself for failing in the areas I really want to change in. Areas that I don't like about myself. If I make it a point to not give into these things throughout the day, and then fail to do so, I really, REALLY beat myself up about it. I have a little battle in my mind with myself. And I know I don't want to keep doing this over and over again. And I know the enemy wants to bring me down and get me depressed. But it's my choice to be depressed and let him get me down. And that's something I DO NOT want to give into. I know I will always be growing and changing and moving forward. But sometimes it's really frustrating when you feel like you're going through the same things everyday and feel like you're never going to learn. Like HOW MANY TIMES IS IT GOING TO TAKE ME BEFORE I GET IT THROUGH MY HEAD!?!

But really, it all comes down to overcoming. God wants us to be over comers of our bad habits, areas that aren't necessarily sin, but that could eventually become sin if we continue to hold onto it. And only by the Holy Spirit and God's strength can we overcome these habits in our lives.

And lately, there are just a lot of things I believe the Lord has shown me that I need to work on and change about myself.

There's' so many things that I want to work on.

I'm just tired of being a slacker and procrastinator and not being organized and punctual or have any kind of normal functioning routine... waiting until the last minute to do things, putting things off and waiting for that "perfect" time (in my mind) to come, which if I do that I will never finish all the things I want to.

I'm tired of getting upset with my boys and giving into anger and frustration.

I'm tired of being lazy, not giving myself a routine to go by each day. Sitting around doing nothing because I feel overwhelmed.

Feeling like a bad wife and mother. God wants me to love myself and be happy with who I am (not in a haughty and prideful way). But because I am a child of him and his creation, it is his will that we love ourselves and we love others and love him.
I want to give all I can and be all I can for HIM, to grow stronger and deeper in HIM and his truth. To be all he wants me to be. No more or no less. And this will be a continual thing throughout my entire life as I walk with HIM.
So during this past week, my word came to me. It was really cool too! I had been studying the word "STRENGTH" throughout this past week. I would look up different verses on it and then write them down. It was very encouraging. A VERY great word to study. If you ever want to study that word I highly encourage you too, or any word for that matter. It's just so encouraging to have a word to look up in the bible, read all the many verses on that word and write them down, it really helps for it to sink in. There were so many verses that really spoke to me and stuck out to me.

And while it was actually when I was reading a little daily inspirational book I have by Joyce Meyer when my word came to me. And I hadn't read this book in a long time, but thought I would open it and read some. So I read one page, and what was the word that stuck out???

CHANGE.

Yup.

simply.

CHANGE.

And that pretty much covers it all! Ha!

God wants me to change the areas of my life that I have allowed to become bad habits and that could become something even worse if I don't do something about it. And I want to change because I am unhappy with my bad habits and things I have given into.

And I realize this is a pretty big feat for me. And in some ways it kind of scares me. Because I know that this will take A LOT of discipline. And probably a lot of trial and error.

This verse was my last verse I wrote down for the week. And it really just spoke to me. So I want to share what I got from it.

Colossians 1:10-12 "That ye might walk worthy of the Lord unto all pleasing, being fruitful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God; Strengthened with all might, according to his glorious power, unto all patience and longsuffering with joyfulness;"

That I walk worthy of the Lord in ALL pleasing!

I sure don't feel like I do much.

To be fruitful in every good work and increasing in knowledge of God..

I sure want to be more like this!

strengthened with all might, according to God's GLORIOUS power, unto all patience and longsuffering with JOYFULNESS.

That's what I want to be, to be strengthened and to allow God's strength to strengthen me through his glorious power, and with patience I can get through these times and changes one at a time, instead of trying to change all at once..

While having the longsuffering of working through it all, and while going through it to have joyfulness and even more joyfulness coming out of it!

Whew!! Okay, so now I really wrote a book here. And I really don't know how many of you out there still visit me and my little blog, but for those of you few that do, THANK YOU! Thank you for taking the time to read all of this and what I have to say! I pray that God is showing you things and encouraging you in areas of your life that you would like to change or even make better! Because you CAN do ALL things through Christ which strengthens YOU!

I will end here.